At some points, I feel lost, disappointed, happy, and most of the other times I just feel numb. Or at least, that's what I've been trying to make myself feel. I'm engulfing myself in it long enough to make my conscience believe that I am numb. I don't want to feel disappointed for being ditched while I'm asleep. I don't want to feel lost for being, well, lost. I don't wanna feel too happy for fear that I might jinxed it all away.
So you know, I'll settle with numb for now.
Finals are just around the corner. Someone slap me out of this delusional idea that I can only focus wholly when I'm fine 'cos that is not an option. Or someone could just lend a hand in cheering me up. My housemates does it all the time, it just tends to wear out too soon.
Honestly, I don't want dramas, just let this disappointment fazes out and I'll be fine, I promise. : )
Oh, by the way, I am honestly at loss for words in this blog. Mostly because I'd rather tweet than compose a post. See you there!
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