You live, you learn.

Unlike previous years, the anticipation towards my birthday wasn't as great. Mostly because prior to that date, I've been spending my day and night entertaining my boyfriend and two buddies who flew to Miri for their end of the year holiday. Unlike previous years, less time were spent thinking how I shouldn't expect too much out of my birthday as more time were spent on scouring for food to eat (so much that Nadirah and I puked, on separate nights), places to see, things to experience. So much time went to pillow talk for Nadirah and I, so many things shared, yet so much more left unvisited. The build-up towards my birthday was more than I could have ever expected, it left me so happy and elated that the thought of how I wanted my birthday to be slipped my mind. Right there and then, it was perfect.

We flew to Mulu on the eve of my birthday. We walked 7.6 km on the first day alone, visited two caves and I got to apply what little knowledge I have on limestone with them, returned to our rooms, all sore from our walk and spent the rest of the night playing a card game Uzair taught us all - Big Two. Too tired to even bother about midnight, we slept minutes before it. Still, it exceeded anything I could've asked for.

The highlight of the day itself was the impromptu birthday song in my room in the morning, the group hug, our boat ride, my new rattan bangles from the local community we stopped by on our way to the cave, and of course swimming in the river not far from its source! Absolutely perfect.

I could let on more on the things we did but truly, it was all about the company I was in.

Merriest birthday to me. I am blessed, happy and more than excited to embark on the next phase. I am also stirring in excitement, awaiting the arrival of my birthday gift from my father I just purchased from Apple.com.

You read that right, bitches!

Unwind.

The 4WD roared as I stepped on the pedal and took a left turn instead of driving straight ahead. One of those days I just felt like I needed to unwind. So, past the one-lane metal bridge I went, hung above the now sediment polluted river, that boasts a new mouth, ironically, rather meekly seeing the present condition - it crosses over to the residential area, perfectly shaded by strong towering trees and lush greeneries with no fenced in garden in sight.

Quite a spectacle for a weathered heart. Made sure my car window was opened all the way down for it - the breeze from the beach through the strands of my hair, the feeling of always being anywhere but not a certain somewhere, it was all much needed.

I'll save the last words meant for this entry in another. Until then -

I guess I'll see ya later, alligator. And I hope it'll be on my happiest note.

Anak Miri.

Normal response when meeting new people who are surprised by the fact that I am local -

"Really? How come I've never seen you before?"

I'm running out of answers for this daft question. Help?

Heartbroken.

Sad.

For the good of the team.

"So, how long have you and Joe been together? Hmm. So it's been almost 3 years since you rampas boyfriend orang ha?"

Mulut Uzair nang mintak cabik.

(Like all boyfriend poachers would say) I didn't steal him from anyone, he came to me! No surprises there, really. I understand some concerns regarding this matter but I have my own reasonings,

1 - They WEREN'T married. It wasn't like they're about to, too. And my best friend, Alau, who is a umm.. senior (he he) in this matter, assured me this.

2 - There may be times when both of them were good together in the past, but when Joe left her, it wasn't the same case anymore.

3 - While there's no promise that Joe and I will be together forevah, both of us and in fact, many others have openly admitted to us being a better pair, for now.

4 - Joe deserves to be with a better person. No, scratch that. He deserves The Very Best. *flexes muscles*

So, why would you stay with someone just because of the sole reason that you met them first when you're better off with someone else, whom you met later?

Why would you stay in a miserable relationship just because you've been with the same person for more than 4 years? Shouldn't relationships be much, much more than just keeping tabs on how many years you've been together?

If your boyfriend wants to leave you for another person, would that same boyfriend be worth fighting over? Why? He didn't seem to bother to do the same for you. Don't listen to the overrated Cheryl Cole. Last name pun 'Cole'. Never trust someone with a horrible ink job.

I know all of these may seem like excuses for me to be with someone else's boyfriend at the time but I've been through the same thing where my ex wanted to leave me for another girl. I fought for it. I won. But staying in the relationship after was useless because I can never forget what he did, nor can I ever fully forgive him for that. The break up was bad. Take my advice, if someone wants to leave you for another, let them. I wish I did.

I've yakked a lot about my boyfriend and it's safe to deduce that we compliment each other very well in so many matters.

These rules however do not apply to married couple. Never, ever try to steal a married man/woman. That is wrong in so many levels and you will forever be reminded by that. And I assure you, it is certainly nothing to be proud of.

Just in case you don't get it, #4 is a joke. Obviously, I kick asses for a living.

Resolution, schmesolution.

Me : Do you have a new year's resolution?

Uzair : No.

Me : Why not!

Uzair : Okay, to lose weight.

Me : Ew! What are you? A 16 year old girl??

2010 is coming to an end in approximately three weeks. This year's resolution was to hug as many people as I can and drink more than just a glass of water per day.

Think I've fared well. I've hugged at least 15 individuals, and any number is an improvement from last year's, really. Come to think about it, why haven't I started sooner? I'm surrounded by very hug-worthy people! I've also yielded to sickness a few times this year, developed an allergy towards dust out of nowhere and therefore had to drink lots and lots of water - my boyfriend's advice to any illnesses, I swear.

My 2011's resolution is to,

take better care of my skin by practising the three basic steps - cleansing, toning, and moisturising

&

to think more before I speak.

Keeping another one private. And no, it's not to lose 10 kgs by 2012!

Thought I throw in John's picture seeing how I'll be seeing him in.... 4 days!

*blows vuvuzela and throws confettis!*

Disappointed.

How could you?

How could you be with that girl??

I'm so disappointed with you, Kimi!

I'm not going to read your blog anymore!!!!!!!!

(Yea, yea I'm overreacting, so sue me!)