Day 31.

Things that made me tear up today.

1 - A line from a song I listened to while trying to sleep last night.
2 - Waking up in the morning and realising how I have 30 minutes for Subuh, a quick shower, a little last minute packing (I never learn!) and having to be at Uncle's place before 6 (carpool to Bintulu).
3 - When I found out about something.
4 - Being in the listening radius of an officemate playing a list of love songs. I shit you not, I teared up at Celine Dion's My Heart Will Go On. Oh schmuck me, schmuck me hard.
5 - And then her playlist played another love song - this time by Jaclyn Victor and Misha Omar. Bloody hell.
6 - And then I just HAD to download the MP3 for that song on my own laptop, and listened to it on repeat. Why do I loathe myself so much, I wonder.
7 - On my way to a Pasar Ramadhan not far from where I'm staying, just because.
8 - Being on my own at the Pasar Ramadhan. Staring guys be damned, aku jalan buat muka ketat. Berani lah tegur! Berani!
9 - When I received a Whatsapp from a friend that read, "Hehehe, I'm at Wisma Genting, jangan jeles!" My already small peepers started to well up with tears right that instant.
10 - All through out listening to Bleeding Love on my iPhone. -__- Ya Tuhan! Well, at least that made me sleep like a baby before breaking fast time.

I'm just extra sensitive today. You'd be too after 31 days of going through what I'm going through at the moment!

Okay, maybe not. I've always been a lil' bit of a crybaby when it comes to matters of the heart. And my heart is screaming out how homesick I am at this moment.

Hey. Manja sangat ni, hati kasi keras sikit, okay?

Random Weekend.

01.

Today I went out alone. It was raining so it made me miss having my best of friends around even more! Also a certain someone and how we would run across Jalan Sultan Ismail in the rain and how I made him use the umbrella with hems so elaborate you'd think it belonged to a princess from the 15th century - but hey, that just goes without saying lah kan.

02.

Yesterday I had to wait for quite some time for my parents to get ready so I stood outside the house and took this picture of my feet and my cat, Ringo. He can't stop following me around, that twat. Nasib baik sayang! Kalau sik, dah lama buat satay!

I KID, I KID! Blrgh, just the thought of it makes me shudder!

(Hahaha! My father just opened my bedroom door and in all serious manner, said, "Tidur dengan Kak Asha ya." He was talking to the cats! Isn't he just adorable?! SAY YES OR I SUMPIT!)

03.

How I found Iman this morning. When I say morning, I mean noon. When I say noon, I mean afternoon.

Cut me some slack, it's the weekend! And I don't get to sleep in covered by heavily strewn comforters and 10,000 pillows when I'm in Bintulu!

So THERE.

04.

Self-explanatory.... but I'm still going to tell you what happened!

So my mother and I went out last night and to our horror, the traffic heading out of the car park area of the mall was moving at a frustrating snail-on-a-crutch like pace we just HAD to start talking about Coca Cola. We mmh-ed and ahh-ed at the thought of quenching our thirst with probably one of the best beverage ever invented (thank you Colonel Cola!).

After we finally escaped the whole debacle, we quickly rushed to the nearest petrol station. And I quickly rushed to the counter, "Kak, Coke duak!" After that, I quickly paid RM3. And I quickly returned back to the car. As I quickly did so, I quickly opened one can, while my other hand juggled with the other one.

And so you know how the story ends - me with a stained t-shirt and a nagging mom.

And so we live happily ever after.

The end!

For the good of the team.

"So, how long have you and Joe been together? Hmm. So it's been almost 3 years since you rampas boyfriend orang ha?"

Mulut Uzair nang mintak cabik.

(Like all boyfriend poachers would say) I didn't steal him from anyone, he came to me! No surprises there, really. I understand some concerns regarding this matter but I have my own reasonings,

1 - They WEREN'T married. It wasn't like they're about to, too. And my best friend, Alau, who is a umm.. senior (he he) in this matter, assured me this.

2 - There may be times when both of them were good together in the past, but when Joe left her, it wasn't the same case anymore.

3 - While there's no promise that Joe and I will be together forevah, both of us and in fact, many others have openly admitted to us being a better pair, for now.

4 - Joe deserves to be with a better person. No, scratch that. He deserves The Very Best. *flexes muscles*

So, why would you stay with someone just because of the sole reason that you met them first when you're better off with someone else, whom you met later?

Why would you stay in a miserable relationship just because you've been with the same person for more than 4 years? Shouldn't relationships be much, much more than just keeping tabs on how many years you've been together?

If your boyfriend wants to leave you for another person, would that same boyfriend be worth fighting over? Why? He didn't seem to bother to do the same for you. Don't listen to the overrated Cheryl Cole. Last name pun 'Cole'. Never trust someone with a horrible ink job.

I know all of these may seem like excuses for me to be with someone else's boyfriend at the time but I've been through the same thing where my ex wanted to leave me for another girl. I fought for it. I won. But staying in the relationship after was useless because I can never forget what he did, nor can I ever fully forgive him for that. The break up was bad. Take my advice, if someone wants to leave you for another, let them. I wish I did.

I've yakked a lot about my boyfriend and it's safe to deduce that we compliment each other very well in so many matters.

These rules however do not apply to married couple. Never, ever try to steal a married man/woman. That is wrong in so many levels and you will forever be reminded by that. And I assure you, it is certainly nothing to be proud of.

Just in case you don't get it, #4 is a joke. Obviously, I kick asses for a living.

List of people who deserve to die by my hands.

1 - Child rapists. Oh, have you watched Hard Candy?

2 - Rempits. Would preferably have them be ran over multiple times with my car. I won't charge for any dents or extra-snow wash charges.

3 - Animal abusers. Skinned alive, if that's not too much to ask.

Reblogged.

From a Facebook comment he wrote on my wall on 28th October 2008.

Ten things why I love my Aysha so much:

1) Her obsession for things that are magical, her love for animals and her soft spot for less-fortunate beings makes her adorable!
2) She understands the need to love and enjoy good food!
3) She cheers hard for LFC, she gets just as upset at a defeat, she can name all the players and she hates Man ...United - perfect!
4) Her beautiful singing voice makes me melt on the inside, if only she could see it!
5) No matter how many different hairstyle she tries on, she'll look fine all the same. Natalie Imbruglia-short darling? By all means!
6) Her intelligent mind and the way she thinks makes her leagues above all bimbos united. And her English is excellent!
7) I cannot complete this list without mentioning she's got a great ass!
8) No matter how much she denies it but I really think she is a brilliant writer. Read her blog!
9) Her eyes. Those pretty, captivating set of eyes.
10) The way she loves me makes me feel like I'm the luckiest person on earth!

Pretty bummed that I can't find my way into my old private blog. But this will do for now.

Tickled pink.

Things to be inflatedly happy like a helium balloon headed for nowhere, today (not that I'm not inflated enough) :

1- Egg Mayo Gunkan and this exquisite roll of beef with mushroom in the middle. 'Twas like an orgy in my mouth. One I'd attend clad only in seaweed. Lady Gaga can suck it.

2- I had my report graded right in front of my face and my heart was thubthumping, threatening to glide up my trachea but when it was finally handed to me, one look and I walked away with a slight spring on my feet.

3- Jiang who offered me sweets when my tummy growled in protest of not having dinner yet. Sweets? Such a sweetie. That killed me.

4- Today, the 29th of September at 4:30 PM, I successfully cheered up a moody Yinka who looked like she could chow me down in a heart beat. I. Am. Super Woman. Also, thank you Yinka for not snapping my body in two!

5- Yousif, who waited at the door to walk out of class together. Nothing beats a sincere gesture, really.

Also worthy of note, I will have 3 amazing buddies and the world's greatest boyfriend in Miri mid-December. I am soooo excited, I think I just peed my pants!

Hairymarks.

The remarks I received on my new do today.

1. Cool dowh rambut kau, from Bella. Upon seeing me waking up this morning.
2. Cantik. Tapi rambut je lah cantik. From Anip. Pujian alang alang has landed you again in my Hatelist of the day (which I haven't had the will to summon to compile them just yet).
3. Eee kenapa rambut kau messy?? Say this in a high pitched voice and voila, you just did a Nina!
4. Rambut baru, Aysha? Comel lah, Fidz exclaimed when she saw me walking in BT (Bilik Thesis).
5. Ha ah! Comel. Biha followed en suite. Biha ni, kalau Fidz cakap A, dia pun gerenti cakap A jugak. Bestfrghen lah katakan.
6. Kan? Macam budak-budak. Fidz continued. Whuuut.
7. Aysha memang macam budak-budak lah! Ruby mencelah. Ewah ewah. To which I rushed out of the room yelling in exasperation, Tak nak lah macam budak-budak dah! Aku nak sexy! Aaaarghhh!
8. Hahaha apsal rambut kau? Farid asked. Ni kawan bertuah ni.
9. Eh kau macam budak liar lah. Farid +1.
10. Rambut kau reminds me of Bella lah, Seri commented. As in Bella fucking Swan. Is there any other celebrity I hate more than Kristin Stewart? Oh yea. Lots.
11. Macam Korea lah!!! Okay kalau nak quote Nina kena banyak exclamation marks. Because that's just her. Don't forget to add her shrilly voice.
12. Eee ye lah macam Korea! Sebab kalau cakap sekali je tak mencukupi kuota.
13. Ha ahh lah macam Korea!! Okay kuota dah cukup.
14. Eh macam budak laki Korea!! Okay, okay Nina dah kena ban dari comment lagi.
15. Cool lah macam Little Jenny. Bella again after I told her the remarks I got from today. I simply said, I hate Little Jenny.

But most of all, my Joe Jr. likes it. : ) Although he can't seem to decide which hairdo he prefers more. As if I have demon inside my body that craves for boy-meat if he's telling the truth!

Here's wishing for a nice, productive week for everyone. Amin. Also, for me to not break fast before the real hour. HAH. Amin ramai-ramai ni!